Man, it has been SO long since I have written on here! It has been a long time since I have written anything in general. But for some reason, I’ve been wanting to get back into it.
I was surprised when I logged onto WordPress to see a notification that today is my one year anniversary for my blog! Looking back at my first few posts is so crazy. I have come so far in just a year… I’ve experienced rock-bottom lows and mountain-top highs and everything in-between. I’m thankful that right now, I can say that I’m pretty content. A lot has happened since the last time I posted an update with my eating disorder recovery status. But, I have good news!! I have been successful in maintaining my weight since August (and I honestly don’t know what it is, but I plan to keep it that way), and my nutritionist has removed me from my meal plan – now I’m on a more “intuitive eating” kind of plan. It has been very freeing, and I love the sense of accomplishment that I feel. It’s like I’ve finally gotten somewhere after battling for almost a year and a half. Praise the Lord for His ever-faithful help in my time of need and for being sovereign over my life. Things may not have happened as quickly as I would have liked for them to, but I know that God was in control through it all.
Learning to be patient with God’s timing is something that I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. Whether it be recovery, relationships, school, job-searching, or whatever else, I have to come to terms with the fact that I am not in fact the ruler of my life! What’s the point of putting my faith in Christ when I still feel like I have to depend on myself to make things happen? What Jesus did for me in dying on the cross has given my life more meaning that anything I can do on my own. So what if I don’t recover overnight? So what if I’m 20 and single? So what if I don’t have a job right now? This all counts as nothing compared to what is ahead.
“Hallelujah! For the Lord our God, the Almighty, reigns.” (Revelation 19:6 NASB)